Kick ass ab work out →
I’m going to start using this to keep track of my work out routine. Don’t mind me, I’ll just be sweating balls. Time to get back into aerial shape! This work out is the shit by the way. And tumblr is just freakin’ weird.
take care take care take care take care that’s all i do is take care. take care of him. take care of her. take care of it. take care of that. just for once would someone take care of me? moving out in a month. fuck this place.
being terrorized by the thoughts of you. mesmorized by the words you say. engulfed in the idea of you. but there’s nothing left that I can say. Do you feel me? Like I feel you? Can you hear me? Like I hear you/ Do you fear me? Like I fear you? Is this the right thing or just another mistake baby. Struggling to forget you. It’s so hard for me to not think of you. Going crazy with all...
bitch rant fuck
What am I suppose to do with myself? I’m going fucking insane constantly trapped inside my fucking skull. BLAH! FUCK! Maybe I’m starting to push people away and I don’t even know it? Who knows I’m fucking exhausted and drained. I have such an easy life why do I feel this way? I am fucking selfish you were right thanks for that one. Can i just purge everything from my...
how quickly your emotions can get jerked around is fucked up
The blood pumps through the heart giving life to whatever creature it is attached to. Sucking in and pushing out in a constant rhythm. Timing down to a millisecond. Nothing else. Just the beat. The life this being has, was it given to them for a reason? Is there really ever going to be a way to answer that question? My heart gets pulled in a multitude of directions. Yanking back and forth like a...
song idea or something; rough
and when you close your eyes the world disappears your face melts away along with your fears you said you would change but that don’t mean shit forget what I say just go get your fix tried to fill me with lies built me up to believe a crime you gave me a choice to give in or to give out and either way my heart was filled with doubt a criminal with a mouth of gold filled to the brim with...
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The L Word is getting way too intense....
If your eyes were left open and fixed on my face would try to make yourself stop crying? Would you let them fixate on me for eternity until they rot and dry out in a cold desert wind? Could you stand the thought of your last vision being only me and nothing else? Would it cause you pain to know that is all you will see? Nothing else, only me. If my eyes were left open and fixated on you, I would...
You were too trapped inside your own self. You couldn’t take a moment to step off your shelf. Everything was meaningless, pointless, a waste. Fucking quit habits and smack bad attributes I watch the venom pour out of your brain. Tastes like red wine and metallic pain. But beware don’t let that shit slip into your veins. That poisons contagious and mischievous, Keeps you thinking your...
I’m super depressed right now. I don’t get it. I do get it. But then again I don’t. It’s all bullshit. Why can’t I be happy when I am alone? It’s a rare thing when that happens. I think I really need to get back into therapy or something. I feel like a mess. All I want to do is get fucked up. I have no motivation to accomplish anything spectacular. I would...
- working for 8 hours - running gus for 30 minutes - at home work-out routine 30 minutes - stretching 10 minutes
i subconsciously recreate the moment to get a rise out of life again. i like the way you made me feel helpless. i crave that feeling of adrenaline loneliness. i go to sleep at night while my brain turns on and the little synapsis re-play that moment again. blackness. noise. soft sound. smooth pillow. blanket. hushed voices. spinning. thought process failing. hands. large. ruff. craving. groping....
Fucking going out of my mind! Too much pressure too much shit is going down right now. Do I move from this place? When I feel like I haven’t really taken advantage of the opportunities I’ve had. Or is it to late because those opportunities are already gone so I should take the opportunity to leave and start somewhere fresh? I just want to fucking EXPLODE. COLORADO or...
Wake up call. Number one. My brain is on pause. Unjustified and numb. Spit it out and regurgitate the facts. That your life is slipping before you, and you can’t get it back. With a dry wheeze and slit throat, everything just seems like a joke. I can’t believe I let this happen. My own eyes blind to my own demise. With a little shove from a blind eye there’s no way to justify. ...
a little "love" poem fucks.
indesicive incomprehensive chokable cravings fingertip gravlings a parsnip in a pear tree just shoves its branches in me twist it again why don’t you? i feel nothing. i’m looking from the outside in. i see what you’re doing drilling me with guilt. fuck that. i’m aware of the surroundings that you’re teasing my brain lobes with, what’s that word again, oh yeah....
twik twak fucked
I’m chokin’ tokin’ speed ball rollin’ going crazy insane peeling the skin backwards on your arm then stopping and reversing what i just did like a makeshift technique that tweaks and twanks out of shape and mind as the scalpel slices into your skin i drip and drool out of my orifices each new droplet like a birds egg coming out of the womb. we sit and nest a top the trees...
I don’t even know what to write. My mind is blank. I feel blank. I have no emotions. I have no feelings. I am nothing. It’s not like it even matters anyway. Why should it. I am just a carcass decaying on this planet earth. This beautiful planet that my body is infecting. Destroying. I think it’s a good thing that we are all suppose to die soon. Let the earth live in peace...
little pricks of pain
It’s a terrible feeling when you realize you have no safety net. You’ll just keep falling and falling and falling forever waiting for a hand to appear and yank you out of this black hole. When you know there will be no hand. There will be nothing. Just you and the darkness. People say you have to save yourself. Well it’s hard when your blind to your surroundings. Numb yourself....
What do you do with VERY fucked up information that you find out about someone you only know based on an acquaintance level?? And you know they need help, but it’s not in your place to say anything because they don’t even know that you know?? God, fuck this planet and this human race and what humans can do to each other and try and pretend everything’s alright after wards. I am...
bright eyes purple thighs chapstick razor highs I wanna be close to you.
Johnny are you queer?
I sign my lease Wednesday for my new apartment! I’m really excited and freaking out at the same time.