If your eyes were left open and fixed on my face would try to make yourself stop crying? Would you let them fixate on me for eternity until they rot and dry out in a cold desert wind? Could you stand the thought of your last vision being only me and nothing else? Would it cause you pain to know that is all you will see? Nothing else, only me.
If my eyes were left open and fixated on you, I would erode inside myself because you made me feel like I had nothing left. I would deteriorate with each failing breath. You filled me with folly and deception and nothing more. These eyes would gladly dry out and crack to erase the vision of what you lacked.

But my eyes are my own and I fixate on what I want. Because I am my own and not your worthless twat.

You were too trapped inside your own self.
You couldn’t take a moment to step off your shelf.
Everything was meaningless, pointless, a waste.
Fucking quit habits and smack bad attributes
I watch the venom pour out of your brain.
Tastes like red wine and metallic pain.
But beware don’t let that shit slip into your veins.
That poisons contagious and mischievous,
Keeps you thinking your the fucking best.
But when the night comes who’s there to say your done?
You’ll be left alone, cold and numb.

I let it seep in under my skin,
Lost a moment of myself to your selfish sins.
Started drowning in your venomous tongue.
But now I’ve realized that the bullshit is done.
You never realized what you had,
Keep thinking I’m a two timing hag.
But if your eyes were open you would have seen
That the best thing you had in life was me.

Now go ahead and remember that,
because it’s too late you wont get me back.
I’m moving forward step by step.
Gettin’ my life in order
Keepin’ my head in check.

No more bullshit, no more puns.
Just gotta run with the flow and put down these guns.

I’m super depressed right now. I don’t get it. I do get it. But then again I don’t. It’s all bullshit. Why can’t I be happy when I am alone? It’s a rare thing when that happens. I think I really need to get back into therapy or something. I feel like a mess. All I want to do is get fucked up. I have no motivation to accomplish anything spectacular. I would really like to though. Fuck. I feel like shit. Really wish I hadfalwejraogjoewrua sowejtihweaiheraioiaruaoinoapower3